10 Things

You ever have one of those days where you just wish you could run away from home. I think this all stems from being overly jealous of a co-worker who is moving and pretty much starting over. I want to start over. I want a nice house with pretty paint on the walls. I want a $40 power bill. I mulled this over and over in my head until it pretty much made me sick to my stomach. I want, I want, I want.

Time for the Big Girl Panties Ang. If you want then why don't you get? Buck up self. This is your life and instead of whining and crying over what you can't have lets try working on what you can have. I think this might be where I slap myself in the head

Goals, I need goals. I need realistic goals and a cut off date. So here we go. I'm going to start with 10 things. 10 things that I want to have or do by my birthday. That gives me 6 months to work on them. With these things I also have to work on paying my bills and getting my finances under control, that is part of he deal.

1) Paint my bedroom

2) Get Ipod docking stations for the house

3) Plant a tree

4) Buy a lawn mower

5) Get a pedicure

6) Lose 20 pounds

7) Go away for a weekend

8) Get a dishwasher

9) Go on, at least 3 job interviews

10) Clean the basement out and start working on the soap lab

So what happens if I don't do this. That's the beauty part. It will be my loss. I here by take responsibility for my unhappiness and here is my chance to take it. With 10 little steps I have the ability to show myself that I can do it. I can achieve what I want and it's all with in my grasp.

So other than being a green person, I'm actually doing OK. I do wish that I would get my W-2's from Borders just so I could get my taxes done. I need money fast to pay my power bill. You see I kind of didn't pay it last month because I didn't have the money and now it is $1026. That made my heart stop when I saw it. It will be fine. I will manage around but things are going to be very very tight until I get it paid off. I just wish C would get a job. It would just help so much if he would.

So on that depressing note I'm going to head to bed. I have to be at work tomorrow at 8:45 and I need my full 7 hours of beauty sleep or I will be a booger all day. Honestly, I do try my best to contain my inner booger.

Night all, sleep well and just keep watching the goals...I have hope.